Ants in the Pants

God’s voice in my life has been, what I would call, ambiguous. He speaks with fire and the thunder but also in a soft whisper; our communication is more of the whisper variety. So when I get a sense of restlessness I always question its source. Historically, I have proof where this “get up and go” was God’s step for my life, but other times it has just been me, my missionary-kid self, bored and unsatisfied, ready to move on. I’m ready to “go” but how long do you wait for a whisper?

These thoughts bring up an interesting question – do I not feel comfortable in a time of settling? My life has been a series of transitions since the time I graduated college. It’s common belief that it takes a year to fully transition into a new environment or scenario. I’ve been out of college for almost four years (yikes!); three-fourths of that time was spent in transition. That’s my sweet spot. I feel comfortable in the unsettledness. Nothing is permanent. It’s flexible. Don’t like a situation – move on. This probably isn’t healthy, but it’s me.

This is a giant lead up to my state of mind – I’m ready to go. I love the comforts of home and Colorado but I’m over living in the U.S. Why be stuck in one place when there is a world to explore? My job right now is great; I’m in a support role for ministry all over the world. OC’s people are great and God is doing great things through them. But this is a season, and what I would consider a short one. I have wanderlust that will not easily be quenched.

I think God has big plans for my life – I’m just not quite sure what they are yet. I am definitely in Colorado until August. I pray that during this time I hear God’s whisper in my life. I pray I will seek him more faithfully everyday and not make rash decision based on that itchy feeling from ants in my pants. J